i always think about this French chef who committed suicide a long time ago i'm sure you heard about it, he was so troubled with everything i don't want to be like him i have nothing to lose and that's something i never forget hey i'm starving let's go get some breakfast and some coffee, okay? we're in the weeds, okay? in the weeds we love to be in the weeds you know, a lot of artists were here triggering something inside of you, the memories inside of you memory is very important you have to look at yourself and be hard on yourself every fig will bleed milk if it is not ripe memory is very important see looked at my life and said "i am not happy" it was too beautiful, in a way, not in a literal way you had all the sensation of life sweetness bitterness darkness a simple recipe who doesn't want to work with someone like that? give me a different life we would hide here my little bedroom i thought that was amazing i cried that day, for sure i know i am doing the right thing you need to be hard on yourself reflect on what matters, what doesn't matter what i remember the only thing he told me: I do love you. for how long? Until the end of my life.