I want you to know
I want you to know
You’ll never escape me
-- Alice Notley
I had never been in love before.
I was like a thin wheel
tumbling downhill,
unstoppable and shaky.
I had to do something.
You remember too much, you accused me
much later,
when things began to unravel.
It’s almost sad when you think about it.
All my life, I was rewarded
only for my intellect
and my willingness to sit still.
This made me
invisible
and it is now my weapon.
People like me
who seem steadfast and selfless:
we’re the adders in the switchgrass
I am tired of being mysterious
There is so much
overcompensation
You wanted in, so I let you in.
When did my appetites
ever preclude your search for pleasure?
No,
you begged me for this, demanded access
to my kingdom of seriousness,
greedy for the novelty of it,
like some infantile thing
only ever wanting to grasp me
and express yourself.
Never imaging that this would cost you anything.
So I let you in.
I let you use my body
like a ladder
to pull yourself out from the mire.
Never imaging that this would cost you anything.
But didn’t I try to tell you? I tried to warn you
that I would get inside you
and ruin you.
Say love again, I dared you
as I held your head underwater.
After that, you kept me
in a tank with your stonefish
and my chapbooks.
How easy to become a possession
and you handled me so precisely,
all eyes and teeth,
just the way
I like it.
I had never been in love before,
and I had to do something.
Your eyes as bright as arctic water.
Those demon Nordic lakes.
I could drown in those eyes
I told you.
And here we are,
standing at the bottom of the well.
And I remember everything.
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This was brilliant. Personal and complex and real, but with a lyricism that lets you just get lost in it. I could relate, on one hand; on the other hand, I have become an admirer of that heart that can give so much and understand so much.
Keep loving and stay inspired.
very nice indeed. i like the way it builds towards the inexorable climax. by the way, i’ve made several attempts to follow your blog, all without success. guess i’ll just have to do things the old-fashioned way.
tantalizing web woven here and I like it…it drew me in and I was mesmerized. well done!
really liking your poetry. (would love to be able to ‘like’ it on the web, too, but am defeated in search for like button). anyhow, excellent writing.
You’ve got some some really unique lines in here. Very nice stuff. Many thanx for sharing your poetry with us and for visiting my blog. Have a wonderful holiday.
Brutal, honest and touching all at once.
We are all carnivores.
“we’re the adders in the switchgrass”
I know this feeling.
Heaven and annihilation.
“use my body like a ladder.”
stonefish.
“oof”
right in the gut.
beautiful work.
amazing work
There’s not much better than this to be found up here on WP. Great job. —Chagall
Great writing. Compelling.
Hi there.
Thanks for stopping by my blog and for the like.
I love the way you write.
It is very picturesque. And very emotional.
Keep writing.
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Deep with a raw passion that renders the soul exposed. That is how your words peel away the guarded me to reveal the frightened boy from within. I like the sincerity of your poetry.
“Mercy, mercy but love is strange.” Bonnie Raitt – Love Letter.
You nailed the feeling of drowning in love. “I wanted to be wanted”. Every lover’s desire.
Beautiful work!
oh wow. it’s amazing how one can write something that resonates so clearly with another. really really love your writing, and this one especially.
Wow ! I’m breathless !
This is absolutely fantastic. I loved it.
I love the way it’s written and the format. Very fluid. I couldn’t stop reading! Never stop writing. Also, thank you for the like. Followed! 🙂